HOLD ON.
-Jim Carrey-
-Friedrich Nietzsche-
The feeling when you give up. That great disappointment that you feel because the effort you gave to the task wasn’t good enough. Ha, I’m currently feeling all that right now. If I can’t pull myself back together, I’m afraid I’m going back for medication.
Medication isn’t something I’m embarrassed about. It is something I want to tell the whole world. I want the whole world to know that I’ve become like this because of how messed up it is!
WOW! DIS-AP-POINT-MENT-SSSSSSSSS.
Imagine yourself trying to swallow food.
At first, the word ‘disappointments’ appear easy to chew
But as you place it in your mouth; you suddenly realize that it’s hard to chew. (This is the part when you realize that disappointments are not easy to avoid. You realize the effects disappointments have on people. You realize how much effort you need in order to avoid the disappointments from happening.)
And when you got so overwhelmed with the consequences and effects of disappointments, you start chewing so hard to make sure that it will not hurt when you attempt to swallow the food.
But unfortunately, as you swallow what you have chewed, you realized that it wasn’t chewed as well as you thought it was chewed and it hurt a lot when you swallowed it.
MY POINT IS,
What’s done it done and no matter how much you prepare yourself so that you can avoid something bad from happening, you have no guarantee that bad thing won’t happen.
Sometimes no matter how much effort you put in, you’ll find yourself saying ‘my effort wasn’t enough’ in the end.
THIS happens to me every single time.
And although it hurts to just watch what could have been rightfully mine be given to someone else..
THERE’S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.
But you know what? I am not giving up.
Well yeah, maybe I didn’t get what I was aiming for..
So from now on, I am FIGHTING HARD for what I want.
There will a chance for me to lose the fight..
But still in the end.. I want to be able to say
“I fought well. I did my best.”
SO THREE-EXPRESS-ONE, THE CHALLENGE IS ACCEPTED.
AND DEAR BOYS, THERE’S NO CHANCE YOU’LL BREAK MY HEART AGAIN. NO GUY DESERVES MY TEARS.
BOOKS BEFORE BOYS.
Labels: 3E1, boys, break, disappointments, expectations, heartbreak, love, school, stupid, tears
I went to Malaysia and
I think I’m moving =’[ .
I spent my weekend in Kuala Lumpur Malaysia where my Dad planned to meet his friend who’s helping him get a better job. According to Dad, he deserves more than what he’s currently getting so that’s why he quit his job. After writing the resignation letter and handing out his ‘Resume’, several companies have been calling to offer THREE TIMES as much as his current value. I WAS SURPRISED. Dad knew what he was worth and knew that he deserved more. ^_^
WORTH - The quality that renders something desirable, useful, or valuable.
Knowing what you deserve and what you’re worth are two different things that relate to each other.
Valentine’s Day is coming up! I don’t have a date. To be honest with everyone, I didn’t feel good at first when I realized I won’t be spending a day with someone special, I shouldn’t be expecting a love note or a card from anyone in particular and neither should I hope for a simple bar of chocolate from anyone.
I didn’t feel good until I realized my Birthday will be a few weeks after Valentine’s Day. A day especially for me and no one else. A day when I have the right to expect greetings, gifts and simple texts saying I lived another THREEHUNDREDSIXTYFIVE days! Even though I could expect gifts, I won’t be hoping for any.
After my trip to Cambodia, I learnt to appreciate the littlest things in life.
For instance, when I’m on the way to school,
I appreciate the fact that I have fully covered shoes,
I don’t have to walk for hours under the hot sun,
because I can take the air-conditioned MRT.
And as I walk to school, I carry a bag full of well printed books, several pens and pencils, a water bottle filled with drinkable water and the lists goes on..
Children are starving on the other side of the world.
Teenagers feel insecure.
Teenagers feel that they’re not good enough.
It’s scary to realize that there are millions of girls out there who think being skinny, having big boobs, large eyes, a pointy nose and a big bottom is the definition of pretty.
It’s scary to know that people on one side of the world afford to leave some food on their plate when the other side of the world has children DYING of hunger.
It’s scary to see children RUNNING to school without shoes to make sure they sit closest to the teacher because they want to learn,
while we see teenagers DRAGGING their feet to school and HATING homework.
It’s EVEN SCARIER to know the number of people who think that they’re not good enough, who aren’t satisfied with what they have!!!
[It’s getting late; I’m running out of words! My train of thought’s going bad.]
BUT MY POINT IS..
EVERY HUMAN BEING
SHOULD BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT HE OR SHE HAS..
AND NOT BITTER
FOR WHAT HE OR SHE DOESN’T HAVE.
LOVE LIVING LIFE
AND BE HAPPY!
CHEERS TO DANIEL THE BESTEST TEXTMATE! ILY.
Labels: appreciate, happy, homework, life, love, worth
Good evening! J
Today I shall post about what I have been up to lately.
I have been studying and studying and studying and … studying.
HAHA. Yeap, that’s pretty much everything that has been going on.
I was streamed to Secondary Three-Express-One.
It’s no big deal.
HAHAHAHAHA! HELL YEAH IT’S A BIG DEAL!
When I was in Secondary Two, I looked up to my seniors who were in E1. I still do J.
It’s a big deal because the class is pretty much the most studious, competitive, hard working (emphasise on the word ‘class’ meaning I’m looking at most of the students in it), diligent, and every other character a teacher would love.
I think (so far lah), I’m not going to regret choosing 3E1.
But we’ll see. ^^
I’m taking NINE subjects :
English
Elementary Mathematics
Additional Mathematics
Pure Biology
Pure Physics
Pure Chemistry
Geography
Social Studies
French
I’m pretty confident I’ll get through this well with the help of my classmates, seniors, friends, Mum (she’s a Chemist, so she helps me with Chemistry), My Aunt (she’s a doctor, I bet she could help me in Biology) and my Dad (he’s my idol when it comes to maths! He’s a Civil Engineer). I’m not boasting about what I have. I am indirectly thanking people who, I know, will always be there for me NO MATTER WHAT ^^.. <3
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